sleep is the cousin to death

“to die: to sleep;
no more; and by a sleep to say we end‚
the heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks‚ that flesh is heir to.
to die, to sleep;
to sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there’s the rub;
for in that sleep of death what dreams may come”

to cover myself with the earth
to descend deeper into the dark
to close the final curtain on the day
and wade into a faceless sea
to fall
to fly
to sleep

whose hand cradles us, molds us, transforms us,
into the strange creatures we become in the morning?
who cuts the creases, punches the swollen, sucks the dry of us?
who mashes the hair, works it’s fingers, pulls at it like smoke, spinning and turning,
cutting it like jagged teeth, or glueing it like spider’s silk?
whose breath blows a stench into our mouths? a kiss of death.
who ties our limbs, pulls on them awkwardly like a marionette puppet?
who covers our eyelids to sew them shut, our active eyes that remain shut, eyes that are burning underneath and have elephants sitting on the tops of them?
who paints on our mind, steals it, sucks it down, spits it out, pushes it, laughs at it, comforts it, speaks to it, haunts it, opens it, loves it?

it is sleep, the cousin to death.

sleep is the cousin to death is a study of the hand of sleep.
how it plays with us throughout the night and transforms us to the morning creatures we are.
to study the subtleties; the fragile marks that fade off the skin as it is met by the morning light.
the hair, and all it’s forms, shapes, textures, and personalities.
the eyes, as they drag life back into them, eyes that slowly blow life into the glowing embers from yesterday, a fire that is only snuffed by death.
we awake.
it is a new day, and our cousin has left us.
this is the portrait and the moment that i chose to photograph.

this is the study of the coming back to life…and more.
i chose for this project to focus on women only. i am fascinated by what we as a society choose to expose to the world and what it is we choose to hide behind. portraits of women in the morning perhaps help us remove the masks we hold, open our venerability, and thus find common ground amongst one another.
all the portraits from this series were taken immediately after the subjects have crawled out of bed after a full nights sleep. unlike the death portraits (my previous portrait series) where i meticulously controlled ever detail – the portraits of these women are authentic expressions and without my control, my focus being to record the transformation from sleep to life as accurately as i could.

in order of appearance:
sarah, jaime, ruby, kate, meghan, ashley, katy, sam, kerissa, and megan.
a very heart felt thank you to you all.
without you and your participation, my art, and therefore myself, would not exist.

and this above all: to thine own self be true

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own now workshop
= 100% awesomeness

we’ll be talking the soup, talking the sweat, and draw outside the lines.
we’ll hold a camera to our eye, but photograph from the heart.
many thanks to the souls who have joined me in this quest – being true to who they are, making their work more personal and therefore meaningful, and are ready to do it now.
own now.

the soup and the sweat: own now body of work

this workshop was inspired by others who are confident in expressing their voices, knowing who they are, where they have come from, and where they are going.
it is my goal, my ambitions, my motivation, and my blood sweat and tears to help you catch the same vision, to part the seas of mediocrity as you challenge yourself and this world by shouting your voice as loudly as you can. there is only one you, it’s time that you owned it.

this workshop will be broken down to 3 major parts: 1) morning lecture 2) after lunch lecture 3) shooting on location. AKA feel good, get grounded, get running.
the lectures have been blessed with a name and a purpose: the soup and the sweat

the soup will consist of the morning lecture. all the good stuff we get to absorb, consume, inhale, be inspired by, mind opening, third eye growing (you get it).
topics include: know thyself, desire, disconnect, ordinary people, inspiration, and questions.
the sweat will be the later lecture. this is how we take all that feel goods and make it applicable. the work, the blood the sweat the tears, the dark hour, the love of it. etc.
topics include: action, work, craft, less is more (and oh there is plenty much more) 🙂

after the lectures we’ll be shooting on location in the typical duston todd stylee.
i encourage you to learn as much as you can at this hands on opportunity. i am an open book and no holds barred. though there are many workshops that have the approach of “come see how to be me” i have not been interested in this method in the slightest – however, i do know there is value in watching and learning from another, and this is that chance.
the time will then be yours to take the same challenges, work with the models in your own fashion and bring much of what we have talked about to life.

need a refresher on the details to the workshop?
own now project
173 east broadway (300 s)
salt lake city, ut 84111
one day only

the one day workshop is $600 per attendee. (limited to 15 attendees.) the cost for the one day work shop includes breakfast, lectures, lunch, models, you and me shoots on location, and a personal portfolio critique of each attendee. plus, we have an exclusive online forum that can really help cement friendships amongst attendees – even before the workshop takes place.

if you are interested in attending, email me at
thanks so much and looking forward to seeing you!

sleep is the cousin to death :: opening 3.18.11

i am excited to share with you my new exhibit and companion to the death portraits…

Friday, March 18 · 6:00pm – 10:00pm
Saans Fine Art Photography Gallery and Studio
173 E Broadway (300 south)

death portraits was a study of the removal of life, this is now a study of the coming back to life.

the portraits from this series were taken IMMEDIATELY after the subjects have crawled out of their bed after a full nights sleep – to study and witness the spirit of the person rise from it’s descended layers of sleephood.

i chose for this project to focus on women only. i am fascinated by what we as a society choose to expose to the world and what it is that we choose to hide behind. portraits of women in the morning perhaps help us remove the masks we hold, open our vulnerability, and thus find common ground amongst one another.

in addition to the SLEEP IS THE COUSIN TO DEATH exhibit, i will rehang and reshow my past exhibit, death portraits as a duo show. – if you missed the one night only show last year, now is your chance to see it.
as many of you may recall, this project was a study of the connection of the soul and the body of an individual. what is communicated if we try to remove that vital element we call that “spark of life” away from the eyes, what remains? this simply started as a question and observation and developed into truly one of the most personal experiences i have encountered through my own art.

nuff said!
come to the exhibits and see the work.
bring a friend. make it a date.
look forward to seeing you there!

the latest in office

in honor of apple’s exciting announcement of the latest ipad release i thought i would throw out my latest concepts of the office setting. headphones? no prob. the brick? don’t mind if i do! and the ever so sleek ipad, soft on the fingers and light weight – and it’s electronic!!
this was a great shoot with a ton of flavor and concepts. many thanks to jeremy warner for rockin it.